I am not a bottom, not submissive, not gay.

I am into something like CNC BDSM.
Not role-play.

I am repulsed, nauseated, disgusted by male homosexuality... All you have ro is have the same sadistic gr8pe obsession I have, and get off other people suffering as miuch as I do.. I am not interested in BDSM style sadists interested giving someone anykind of pleasure, but someone really gets off on the suffering of others. Are you someone who derives pleasure from other people really suffering,, the more others suffer, the more pleasure you get. If this is you, you will get every thing you seek. Make it real. Show no mercy. Behave the exact same way a real gr8pest would behave I'll give written consent that would stand up in any court. I want no way to back out or change my mind, because that would be inevitable.

Everyone is sure this is a sexual fantasy, a fetish or a kink. Anyone who does this will quickly discover I not a submissive, a bottom or a masochist. It will be very obvious just how severe my distress will be. I can describe my motives in private. Only a true sadistic would get anything out of this. Thiis is something true sadists rarely get to experience. There arw masochists who can indures insane amounts of *** and ***. They get off on it. They get sexual pleasure from it.,

I have a very low *** threshold. I will find the whole thing intolerable and unbearable, and that will be acutely obvious. This will be one of the worst things I csn imagine. That is exactly the reason I seek it out.