kellymichaels Posted yesterday at 01:32 AM I finally came out about 25 years ago and it has been so great. I spent the first part of my life like most closeted gay guys and tried to "date" girls all the way--but it was always the same result in the end. I lost interest and dumped them and hooked up with guys for a while and then back to a girl. On and on it went. I finally realized I was doing this to please everyone else but myself. I have always been attracted to men since I was very young especially in high school. (Socastee HS 84) I have always known I was gay and also have known that I have wanted to be a girl too. This can be really confusing because I first thought I liked girls because I was attracted to wanting to "be" one. When I would see a cute girl with pretty legs I wanted my legs pretty too--so I began shaving them when I was about 17. I have always been effeminate as well, talk fem,walk fem etc. So, giving up females to date was not hard at all. It all ended when I was dating my "last" girlfriend when she suddenly asked me one day in the car "if I was gay?" I said "no" of course but to no avail--she had found pics on my computer and a profile on a gay dating website too. She said she was not mad and that she had suspected for some time since we never had sex, and she had noticed the feminine traits becoming more apparent. (I would always sit to pee, shave my legs daily, wore a belly button piercing, in the wintertime I had a thong bikini tan line from my tanning bed) So needless to say, it was over! She basically told everyone that I was gay which was fine after a while because she moved back up to Massachusetts. I do apologize for lying to her like I did but I'm very glad she outed me--(Thanks Lisa J.) I decided to come out then simply because enough was enough. (plus, most everyone knew) My friends all know now, and we barely speak---I don't think it's the gay thing however I think they are uncomfortable with me being so sissy. I have begun transitioning mtf with hormones and have committed myself to being a pridefully out gay sissy. I have a gay pride tattoo on my inner thigh and a tattoo on my lower back that reads "faggot"--because I love being called a faggot! (long story) Being out is so refreshing because everywhere I go everyone knows what a queer I am, and I don't have to try and be masculine etc. When I see a cute guy--I look at him! I love when people whisper "look at that faggot" when I walk by wearing something really sissy. My name is Kelly Michaels--formerly--Michael Dickey---and I live in Myrtle Beach SC and I'm proud to be gay "OUT" and a total sissy!
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