Deleted Member Posted January 12, 2011 I have lost the only thing that mattered in my life I think and am now thinking of becoming a nobody again. I can't eat, sleep, stop thinking about him. It has been about 36 hours since I heard from him. Does anybody have anything positive to say about that. I don't want to keep crying. Im tired of doing that so the next best thing for me to do is build a wall around my heart where I can love but it will be hard to let love in.unless I trust you completely which will take some time and all. If anybody is interested in a great guy then let me know or I am giving up on love I have had too many promises made to me.Actually think I will do better than that I will say good byeto gays.com cause of the memories I thought I once had thought come true but now I don't know any more I thank all of you who beriended me I might be back at some other point in time when I am truly over this thanks again my friends.