chud264 Posted October 24, 2012 This is now getting to me, believing I'm not good enough for anyone or anything. The past two satisfying relationships I've had have ended because the person doesn't love me the way they should - this is not a coincidence this is because I'm not good enough for their love, I'm not good enough for anyone's intimate love, this is a fact - I did have one guy who loved me no matter what happened and sadly he passed away and I won't lie sometimes I think it's better to join him so I can be happy with him forever. Today I had a job interview, I had a 15 minute supervision while working with children who require extra support, then I spent a whole hour in a mainstream class room, I really enjoyed what I was doing, I felt... Happy for the first time in over 2 weeks, I smiled and laughed, I enjoyed working and feeling useful, I then had an interview and shaking like a leaf I thought I gave amazing answers, I even surprised myself with the answers I gave - I didn't get the job, I was told I done an amazing job during the interview but I was unsuccessful on this occasion I was gutted but then later seeped into disappointment and realised I'm not good enough. So let's review shall we, 2 really great relationships that ended because the boy I love so much doesn't love me as I love them, a job I really enjoyed doing I couldn't get even though I gave good answers. Guys, do you know how much this hurts? I doubt you do, big time, I always told everyone they are good enough, because they are they truly are. This is going to sound cheesy but my heart really does hurt, sometimes I have chest pains, and I become breathless and sometimes find it difficult to breathe, like now. I'm done, I've had enough, bye guys, I'll see you soon.