Deleted Member Posted May 17, 2012 I feel it's time to be honest and open with you. I will answer any and all questions you ask. In June 2001 one day before my birthday I was told I had leukemia. Chronic Myeloid Leukemia (C.M.L) I wa told I had 3-5 years to live. Then came the trial drugs I agreed to go on them. They made me very sick but they worked. Trial and trial I tried these drugs they got the count down but still no crue yet. So it's been over ten years now and I'm still here and I'm doing OK sure I have lots of side effects and down days so please forgive me if I have mood swings. I have a son and daughter, my son is 21 and has autisum he can not talk and needs one on one care. My daughter ir 18 and has just got her car licence and at last after what seems like forever for her a new job. I was married for 25 years but after all this stress my husband said he needed space and I really couldn't blame him. So here I am separated with two grown up kids who need me. When I was very sick I really couldn't do a lot so I started talking on the internet and I made friends. I met a beautiful girl called Renee' who also had leukemia she had a diffenert sort (the same as my father had) so I was drawn to herwe became very close. Before I knew it I was so in love with her and she was all I could think about. But she was very sick the last couple of years she just got worse and worse. Her best friend Jillian would keep my up-dated when Renee' could not get on-line. Last year Renee' spent most of her time in hospital as she grew weaker and weaker. Renee' past away in october. I still cry when I think of her and as I write this. Renee' was a wonderful poet and inspired me and others. Jillian and I have been there for each other we both loved Renee' so much. Now Jillian is planning move here later this year. So now you know everything about me. Feel free to ask anything. I am an open book. I am telling you this because I have always been a private person and I have always tried to please others. I am a mother and a carer. I love deeply and care too much so I have been told. I always put others before myself. Now you knew me and I want to get to know you. I have known pain and sadness and I have learnt ways to cope through it all. Every tear makes me stronger.