"The one hurts you most teaches you most."
I hate myself. Everyone keeps telling me that no one will love someone who hates herself. I know. But I just cannot help hating myself. When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel disgusting.I think deep in my heart that I don't deserve to be happy. There's no future for me at all. I have been wanting to kill myself since I was 12. I never told it to anyone around me. In their eyes, I am a optimistic and happy girl. But I know I need a therapist. I have been looking for this one for so long and I am becoming more and more desperate. Waiting to be rescued.