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Standing in self-hatred,
drowning in my tears.
Looking back on my life,
what I've been through the past 18 years.
Living
in my brother's shadow,
everything I do & say,
wishing somehow things would change,
praying for a way.
Same old sh*t just another day,
living this evil life that was created just for me.
Starving for love, affection, & attention,
I know none of this is how it's really supposed to be.
I try to be strong,
even though I feel so weak.
Feel like just giving up,
but I won't accept that level of defeat.
Pretend like I'm always happy,
although I'm never really okay.
Waiting for this pain to end,
that I feel every stupid day.
It's hard to say what's wrong,
when nothings going right.
Hard to keep myself going,
when I've been blinded by sight.
This pain is never ending,
it just goes on & on & on.
It's all so unbelievably real,
I just wish it all was gone.
Trying to pick myself up,
when I've fallen so far and hard.
But I don't know where I'm going,
It's all so very dark.
My heart is weak, my emotions sore,
I do my best to never let it show.
But deep down inside I feel like,
I'm dying & nobody knows.
A lot of f***ed up thoughts,
run through my head constantly.
I just wish I didn't live,
this life of MISERY!


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Oh! This is such a sad poem. You are writing out of a broken heart and you are angry!! But no-one can truly say: "I've been there". You would turn round and say (almost SHOUT): "No. You haven't, because you're not me. I'm the one who went all through that stuff. Not you!" Take care of yourself. You are special.


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Raque_Judith_Calderon
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thxxx


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You know you have talent. It takes a lot to put exactly what you are feeling at the time on paper like the way you did.It gives those of us out there that are feeling the same thing as sense that we are not the only one's. If no one hasn't told you today "you are awesome", guess what I just did. Keep it up! You are hitting the nail dead on the head.All situations may not be an exact match but, still others can take bits from it and feel a connection. Because without connection there's nothing. I feel this piece of art known as poetry.


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