Janian_Nenanivik Posted November 29, 2010 Chapter one: The day I met HIM. I bought a copy of " Seventeen magazine"The one with my picture on the cover. All nicely sandwiched between Justin Bieber and Jesse Mcartney. I bought it out of curiosity. To see how it feels to see a glossy picture of yourself on a popular magazine cover. I'm still not quite used to this teen popstar sensation stuff just yet! The magazine article is just your average interview. They ask me a few questions,and I try to figure out the best way to answer them. Standard stuff really.They also mention me being a guest performer at the teen choice awards.I watched my video on "New Now Next Pop lab" Yes! It sounds like I'm obsessed with my self. I guess I'm just amused by it all.When I see my videos,or check out something they wrote about me in a magazine,I still have trouble believing it's me! It doesn't feel like me.That is I don't feel like that person when I'm watching.It still feels like I'm seeing someone I want to be like. A life I want to live. And then sometimes I slip into a long dream and I am that person! I'm dancing before thousands of people. I can feel the energy leaving my body, and the exhilaration of it's leaving. I stand under the banks of hot lights and know what a double cheeseburger feels like.I sing and feel all the emotion well up inside; flowing up from my inner soul like a freshly tapped spring.Loving the release of it! Then I wake up in my room, sit on the edge of my bed and wonder about it. WAS that really me last night? Did I really do that?